Her hair was wavy and auburn, mine was
straw like and ginger. Her eyes were emerald jewels, mine resembled the soaked
grass of a football field.
The hairs on my skin stood up as I
cowered in her grand shadow. She always led, and I followed like the pathetic
creature I was.
She was the poison that you would
willingly drink.
‘Rose, over here!’ Jessica, her closest
friend waved her over, ignoring the lamentable version standing beside her. The
crippling reminder that I was the forlorn twin tore through my stomach like a
dagger. The dagger grew sharper as my cuts deepened. Jessica was cunning and
unstable, much like Rose. My sister however, was smart. She could make us
believe she was normal, however far from the truth that was. Rose hurried me
along as she sauntered to her friends. She wore a light blue sun dress and
strappy sandals, accentuating her delicate curves and perfect creamy light
skin. I grimaced at my own reflection through the tuck shop window. I was waifish
and pale with bags under my eyes and clumpy freckles. I wondered over to the
group of uncontrollably giggly and beautiful girls and quietly sat myself
beside Rose.
‘Oh, hi Iris.’ Meg, a blonde bob haired
girl smiled weakly and returned her attention to Rose. I wasn’t surprised, but
my head throbbed nonetheless. I slaved
every waking moment to be interesting, to meet Rose’s standards. Only hers. I tried
to mimic her stance, achieve her catty eyelashes and make my skin as flawless
as hers. I practiced in front of the mirror, placing a hand on my hip, holding
a cigarette in the other. I pouted until my facial muscles ached. It soon
occurred to be that is was not enough to be like her. I tried to escape from
the shadow that my sister had cast over me but it was much too extraordinary. I
wanted to be Rose and I knew it from the beginning. Her dark red lipstick oozed
sex appeal. A careless flick of her thick hair at a carefully planned moment would
bring boys to their knees.
As my sister excitedly recounted the
intimate events which took place between herself and her outdated lover the
night before, I found myself tugging at the grass beneath me and placing its
thin blades on my pasty thigh. Rose eye balled me in an intense revulsion,
shifting closer to Jess and further from me.
‘Christ Iris, your fingers are filthy
what are you doing?’ I kept my eyes on the soil beneath my fingers, not daring
to look up at her.
‘I’m going to the bathroom to wash them;
I’ll be back in a minute.’
I spent exactly a minute sitting on the flimsy
toilet seat, tears trickling down my cheeks and lips. I cupped a hand over my
mouth as I began to sniffle. The thought of her thrived like mould on bread. As I walked out, I stood in front of the
mirror, stiffening with distaste to what I saw. I rinsed my eyes out and slid
my fingers across the running mascara. I smoothened out my pasty yellow dress
and returned to the group of girls. They hadn’t noticed the shaky fingers or
the glass eyes. Or at least, they had pretended not to. Rose rambled on about
Olive, the ‘too curvy’, ‘too vague’ raven haired girl who had allegedly glared
at her earlier this morning. She tossed her head back and snickered, avoiding
my sullen gaze.
Once the sky had darkened Rose and I
made our way home in silence. I watched her from the corner of my eye as we
walked through the empty streets. Her flawless frame, her refined stride. She
noticed this but refused to look at me. She sighed quietly, rolled her eyes and
looked on.
‘Hello my darlings!’ Mother held out her
arms, embracing Rose and I. Her eyes were unfocused and every wrinkle seemed to
have sunken deeper into her skin. Her light pink lipstick smudged at the right
corner of her mouth, the stench of whiskey leaving her every breath. Rose unsubtly shifted away from me, scowling
before turning to kiss my mother’s cheek.
Jeans, tees and undergarments lay strewn
across the carpet. Dishes from a dinner three nights ago remained uncleaned and
piled in the sink. I hurried up the stairs and locked myself in our room. I
stood, my back against the door, slowly sinking onto the ground. Rose’s side of
the room was impeccably neat. Her sheets were creaseless, her books were
uniformly stacked on the shelf and her expensive clothes perched on their
hangers. My half however, was embarrassingly chaotic. Liquid liners and
mascaras scattered across my dressing table, alongside a photo of Rose. All
those wasted hours trying to look like her.
‘Open the bloody door Iris!’ Rose kicked
the door, jolting me forward and onto my hands and knees. I sunk my nails into
the fleecy carpet, biting my bottom until I could taste blood. I unlocked the
door and watched as she stormed in, spitting out ‘bitch’ and ‘whore’ as many
times as seemed appropriate. My head began to throb violently and every pure
thought left and I was stranded with the corrupt. I stared at her, not daring
to look away. Everything blurred but her immaculate features. I stood up,
sucking on my bottom lip.
‘Why are you Rose. Why am I Iris.’ She
rolled her eyes and placed a hand on her hip.
‘What are you talking about?’ I shoved
her as hard as my skinny arms could manage. A grin escaping me as she stumbled
backwards. She clenched her fists but stayed back.
‘If I was Rose would I be pretty like
you?’
‘Get out of my room now you psycho!’
Rose slapped me. A stinging sensation licked my cheek. I looked to my right,
her pretty red lamp rested on her bedside table. I grabbed the lamp, ripping it
from the power point.
The remorse and instability that had
been hidden by layers of makeup and years of wrongdoings finally found its way
out.
‘Iris.’
I
gazed at her all-consuming fear before cracking the lamp over her head. Blood spilling
into her soft, auburn hair. She wailed and clawed at the carpet. I couldn’t stop. Not until her face was bloody
and ruined.
I sat myself in front of her dressing
mirror, my bare feet resting in the puddle of blood beneath me. I extended the
end of her dark red lipstick, gliding it over my lips, puckering them slightly.
I slipped into her light blue sundress, slowly tracing my curves.
‘Look at how beautiful I am.’ I turned
to see Rose wincing as she regained consciousness. She placed a hand on the
back of her head, sobbing in agony as she noticed the dried blood on her
fingers and the carpet. She lay on her stomach and reached out for my ankle.
‘Ugh, Iris, what are you doing?’ I
kicked her limp and bloody hand away.
‘IRIS, PLEASE!’ She reached for my ankle
again, tugging, crying. I tutted as I picked up the lamp, all blood soaked in
its glory.
‘Well.’ I giggled excitedly. ‘Look at
where we are now.’ Who would’ve thought that I, would be her.
‘I’ve got a boy to meet, as you
mentioned earlier today.’ I slung her hand bag over my shoulder, smoothening my
dress.
She slowly closed her eyes releasing my
ankle, as if she’d given up on the idea of mercy. One deep breath. I swung the
lamp across her head, a sharp crack following as her body collapsed onto the
crimson carpet.
‘I am Rose and you are Iris.’